I'm very conflicted about going to see "the passion of christ". In fact I almost flat out think that seeing it would be the wrong thing to do and that it will only affect my relationship with God negatively.
Here's the deal, i dont wanna see it simply because i dont want to get all excited for the passion, and cry, and repent and make a whole bunch of commitments and start praying for reasons other than crying out for help as a last resort, and rededicating my life to christ, and then sharing my love of Christ with others.
why dont i want to do this???
Because there are already thousands of people doing the same freaking thing, cuz they saw the movie this week, but within a few more weeks, and maybe even days, they will be back on the internet looking at porn, lieing at work and to others about random things, gossiping, thinking about how they want their life to be rather than how God wants their life to be, ETC ETC ETC.
I have been there and done this thing before. and i am positive some if not most of the people reading this thread has done the same.
If i was God the last thing i would want is a bunch of sunny day christians going around acting like they love me and EVEN TELLING OTHER PEOPLE HOW GOOD THIER GOD IS, only to slip back into the normal routine after a lil while, and pretty much make them look full of crap, and make Christ look like a joke or a peace of chocolate/beer/weed that made them happy for a lil while until the "high" wears off.
yes i realise i am not God, and as a human i have no idea what he thinks.
But its just doesnt make sense to me to insult him with these kind of backstabbing actions.
If i could Be sure that myself/others would not turn back, then i would not be so worried.
dont get me wrong, this is also a great excuse not to try to re-ignite the fire that God once Burnt under my uh,, butt
but you have to admit that i have a very valid point.
I do truly hate the fact that i have made these mistakes in the past and i dont want to do it again, if anything for the reason that i am scared of the guilt and depression that settles over me after FLAT OUT LIEING straight to the face of my Savior and the creator of all that is.
my question is, do you feel the same way?? what are your thoughts either way???
i am very interested in your opinions on this subject, otherwise i would not have taken the time to type this out.