being big and strong are 2 different things....i know guys in the 132 lb weight class that're stronger than most of the 181s. Im not big...but im stronger than most kids my age. Im built small naturally, but im pretty cut i guess youd say, and you can tell I have certain muscles built up. so mainly what im getting at....is size isn't everything when it comes to weights, and yes you sound gay. haha j/k man. I wouldn't mind seeing some pics as well. Ill post one if i ever get one, and find out how to.